18NB Bondage fantasy

This is pretty new to me, just being able to talk about it isn't usual for me.

I'm a masc NB questioning trans, and my absolute biggest kink is bondage, with hypnosis a close second. The main thing I want is to be completely suspended with ropes, arms tied up, legs tied together, completely off the ground, just completely helpless and open, positioned perfectly for a rough doggystyle pounding, be it pegging or a dude. Might be tough depending on positioning to keep me fully off the ground but low enough for a good position, but I want it so badly. Being helpless seems amazing.