Fell in love with someone thrice my age

I am Lana. I live in LA. First time i fell in love was that someone. I do see therapist because of that. i do miss him. Life has being up and down and i come from conservative family which makes it difficult. Not a fan of anyone here. I live in Los Angeles. I have roots in Lebanon. I am 19 and yes i am all over the place and thats just me. I love talking about online dress and shopping and easy way to enter my soul. Hope you are as hopeless i am