having my safe word and boundaries ignored (tw)

I want it to start out normal and consensual, maybe I agree to get tied up but set plenty of boundaries or maybe they're just so much bigger than me that I couldn't get away anyway. Everything starts out good and nice, but I said I didn't wanna go too far, that I was still nervous and just wanted to give it a little try. Before I can say to stop they're touching my pussy through my panties, it's already wet from all the kissing and rubbing but I tell them not there but they don't even acknowledge it, simply forcing my legs open and slipping their fingers under the fabric to rub my clit while I start to panic, failing to contain my moans as I beg them to stop

I'd use the safe word and try to wiggle away but I'm totally stuck, forced to accept the disgusting pleasure my body is loving so much. I'd cry when they slip their fingers inside, Theirs are so much bigger than mine and it hurts, even just the two of them. I'm whining that it hurts and begging them to please take it out, still drooling and whining when they touch the right spots. Finally they say something instead of just acting like it's normal, but they just tell me to calm down, that I need to be prepped at least a little or it'll be so much worse when they fuck me.

I'd freak out, screaming and telling them no but they cover my mouth. When they finally do push themself inside id be sobbing, drooling on the gag they stuffed into my mouth but have given up trying to get away. I think I'd like if they were really sweet, as if I loved it and wanted it, telling me what a good girl I am and how well I'm doing, promising to be gentle. Maybe they even are, starting very good and slow while they kiss my neck so I'm good and used to it, meaning I'll enjoy it as much as possible when they pound me into the mattress. Enjoying getting taken against my will is like my number one favorite fantasy because I wouldn't WANT to enjoy it, actually feeling good and god forbid cumming while it happens would be the worst most embarrassing part