Just kinda thinking about it

I (18f) want to be fucked, brutally. I want to be grabbed and spanked, I want to hear what’ll happen to me. I want to be called the worst things imaginable, I want to be left feeling it the next day, I feel like it’s so bad this is all I can think about, I just can’t help it tho. I touch myself all the time thinking about all the different ways my body can be used, it doesnt help I’m also a virgin tbh